Peace fam,
Yeah, you not trippin… I didn’t post anything the last couple weeks.
See, usually when I come back from a pause, I feel this lil urge to explain it… like I need to say I was recalibrating, restructuring, realigning, rethinking.
All the “re” words us creatives use when we’re trying to make rest sound productive.
But this time, I don’t really even feel like apologizing for the silence.
I think I’m noticing something tho...
Even writing this post is me trying to turn everything into art. That’s kind of the whole point.
For the next 25 days, I’m taking what I’m calling a creative arts fast. I don’t want to make it dramatic. I just want to pay attention to the parts of my life that don’t always become songs, essays, designs, rollouts, or concepts.
Because I’m noticing the cycle.
I start something.
I refine it.
I release it.
I get that big feeling when it finally lives outside of me.
Then it sits.
And I sit.
The thing I created is still there, but now I’m left with the emotion it gave me, the hope I attached to it, and sometimes the grief of its lack of potential.
Then, when too much time passes with no update, no next move, no action, the pressure starts building again.
And honestly, I’m getting burnt out from writing about burnout.
Even with Grand Vibrational Design, I have to be honest with myself. I didn’t create GVD like some superpower I use to make me creative.
Nah.
I was dope before GVD.
I’d be just as creative without it.
GVD is a tool I manifested to help me stay aligned with the true purpose of my creativity. That’s it.
But lately, I think I need to stop turning every feeling into a framework.
So for these next 25 days, I’m stepping back from art as output and focusing more on the stuff that holds me together.
My body.
My home.
My marriage.
My kids.
My work.
My money.
My peace.
My discipline.
My relationship with God.
I’ll still document it, but I want these posts to be short and reflective. Less performance. More honesty.
Day 1 is really just me admitting that creativity has been a gift, a language, and sometimes a hiding place.
So the question I’m sitting with is simple:
What part of your life needs attention when you stop turning everything into something to share?
-Gold